A few years ago, I mentioned off-hand to a student of mine
who was a highly skilled writer (she still is, though I can’t seem to convince
her of that) that I had started a novel several times but had never quite
finished it. And by not quite, I mean I wrote the first fifty pages or so over
and over again. Not the same first fifty pages, but the same general story
about a private detective name Harry Shalan and his brilliant, beautiful wife
Deanna. This young lady, seemingly more convinced of my abilities than of hers,
hounded me for the rest of the school year until I agreed to finish that darn
book. And I did. I enjoyed it so much, I almost immediately started on the
second of what I intend to be a long-running series. And the rest is history,
as they say. All of my books have spent several weeks on the
New York Times bestseller list and have
received rave reviews from every single critic on the entire planet.
Yeah, that last part was a bald-faced lie. I have sold some
books, but not enough to say I’m a professional novelist. Somewhere in the
hundreds for two books. Not enough to say at this point that I’m participating
in more than a relatively expensive hobby. And yet, I would not go back and
change my mind about finishing that first book. Writing has had an amazingly
positive effect on me. More than one, actually.
Finishing that first book gave me such a sense of
accomplishment. It made me feel like I could do a lot of things I had not
thought possible before, the main one being to be an actual professional
writer. When I was young, there were three things I really wanted to be: a
first baseman for the Cincinnati Reds, an author, or a teacher. Well, if you
ever saw me try to hit a curveball, you’d know that dream was of the pipe
variety. Writing seemed a little more doable, but the job market for writers is
awfully iffy. It was even more so back then when the only way to get published
was through the giant crapshoot that is querying your work to agents and
publishers. So a teacher it was. And I’m genuinely happy with the choice. I
love my kids.
I settled for watching baseball and playing slow pitch
softball. I’m still not really very good, but they don’t pay me, so it’s okay.
And I thought I might finish a book someday, though I wasn’t sure I really
could. I’d written some halfway decent short stories, but a novel is just so
many words. And, hopefully, not the same eight or ten words over and over
again. Lots of different words. But I was an English major and they prefer you
to know several words, so there was still that tiny glimmer of hope that
someday…

And the someday came. I still wanted to be a “traditional”
author, so I spent almost two years getting rejection notices weekly. The old
cliché of using them to paper my bedroom walls didn’t really work, since they
were nearly all automatically generated emails. But it didn’t matter. I wrote a
book. I thought it was a pretty cool thing and my friends agreed. And ever
since I took the plunge and self-published, even strangers have said so. A
woman in Chicago (I live in West Virginia) tweeted me to say she’d won my first
book in a contest, loved it, and was buying the second the day it came out.
Chicago. Chicago, Illinois. A metropolis with more people in it than my whole
state. I smiled for days that someone in a big city almost 500 miles away liked
my books enough to take the time to tell me.

Sadly, she hasn’t gotten hundreds of her friends to buy
their own copies, but that’s okay too. I hope I can get to a point where
writing will be something I can do for a living, but I love my day job, at
which, for the bonus, I’ve gotten a lot better since I started writing
regularly, by the way. I read all the time about how reading makes you a better
writer, but I’ve found the reverse to be true as well. I’m a much more effective
reader now that I write. The tools I use to create character, plot, and theme
are much more evident in the works I read now. So even if I never sold another
copy, I will have benefitted greatly from writing.
There have been other positive effects, like all the nice
people I’ve met and the new places I’ve been, but those stories can wait for
another day. I could go on forever, but nobody wants that. Too many words.
I could write an article about how I came to write a novel (and finish it) and it would sounds much like this blog post. Except I'm a writer by profession (two stints of newspaper journalism and one stint as a technical writer), not a teacher. I think the hardest thing for many of us is to overcome that "thought" that our novel-writing efforts are not good enough, just like your student.
ReplyDeleteI know I struggle with it constantly, but I wish I could get her to see just how amazing she is. She is someone that comes along once or twice in a teacher's career, if at all. But she told me recently she's barely written at all since high school. It made me so sad.
ReplyDeleteThanks for your comment--I really appreciate it!